So I have had a couple of frantic weeks, and it won't end quickly. But after watching this, I'm trying to look at the positives.
--The meeting went well and they didn't criticize my work
--I now have the third committee person for the committee
--I have a date set for the proposal defense - April 7
--I'm starting to make headway on the statistics program being used to do the analysis
--I have a deadline for completion of the proposal - March 7
--I only have two weekends left to work on the proposal and then I get a break for a couple of weeks while they read...I'll breath then
--As terrified as I am of the defense, I think I might stand an outside chance of passing
Current faculty development workshop positives:
--I wound up not having to do a formal presentation
--My work garnered positive comments all around
--I have the go ahead to make full use of the assignments in my class
--I think that the facilitators (and other attendees) have collegial respect for my efforts
Potential faculty development workshop that included videotaping:
--It looks like I may not be be able to do this one since I'm already in a workshop with a stipend attached -- pressure gone (I hope)
--I've finished the workshop series on using Blackboard and they were very helpful
--My students are fucking awesome
--I've completed and submitted my income tax returns
--I've written a few letters of recommendation for others
--I made it to the gym twice last week
--I finally got to bogo for my birthday
The stresses are still there, including my semester observation-evaluation, which will be done by the department chair this semester. But I'm trying to just take it one day at a time.
The most wonderful thing about tiggers is I'm the only one!